So several medical tests later with no results of any kind of disease or anything. The only conclusion is-
I have literally stressed myself so bad over trying to get a job and a license and move out and other things that I made myself physically ill. Go me |’D
I’m infinitely relived I don’t have some kind of sickness but I also now have no idea what to do really; I mean I’m gonna go talk to the doc and see what they suggest. But a lot of this is hinging on how I don’t have an income to do things so I don’t really know how much help it’s going to be. But I confess I’m heavily considering Tai Chi because it’s got a rep for stress relief, I miss martial arts, and also then I can make being a water bender official //hit
That and since no one seems to be even looking at my applications I’m going to stop waiting around for someone to call, and try setting up an etsy shop.
It’s weird though. I never even thought I was that stressed. Idk I guess I always assumed that’d be more…overtly obvious in my head? That I’d never stop thinking about all these problems?? But it’s actually more like I keep going about things like normal, and every like 2 months I have a moment where I just get like “fuck everything I’m trying so hard but it’s not working so stop adding to the list of things I have to do”
SO idk I guess I'm okay but I'm also not = 7 =;;; donno how this may affect my drawing habits. I mostly got eaten by homework and a sudden need to play all the harvest moon. But the latter is ebbing so maybe soon I’ll have something else to post.